Re: Lifestyle!
Date: February 12, 2006 18:29
First I wanna thank the people who were so open,serious and supportive,especially Lukester and scenearts.
Mandu I like to read in your posts how you're going and I wish you all, to love your body and become good for it!!!I think it's great what you're doing and I'm glad that you're not in a depression.
Then there's another subject I like to mention,I talked about destroying myself with drugs(nicotin) and alcohol,influenced by music and people who are going with these flows,but I didn't mention a sex addiction.I know now that having sex(excuse me for the language I use),when a man fills the three holes in my body which he can fill and which I wanted him to fill,has nothing to do with love,when someone is loving me totally,my whole body (and mind).I know now that when you're living a self-destructive way of live,using drugs ,alcohol,in for example R&R,sex,you'll attract people who do this to.
So, Lukester, when you said make new friends,you where so right!!
But I have to become my own friend first,not attacking myself with poisson,and then there will come a time that I'll attract people who love themselves and can love another.I'm hungry waiting for this time to come when I can meet love!!
I wonder if there are people who are struggling or struggled with al these addictions to,sex,drugs,alcohol and if there is a musical influence!!